Being

I live for moments when time stops and you just breathe.
Close your eyes, inhale, and wrap your soul around existance.
Laying in cool grass, blades pricking at your arms;
Breeze brushing over, thin and secret;
Naturally elegant.
Carrying in it something grander than I can imagine being.
Universes everywhere. Every being loaded with a story for why.
Foreign places with different languages.
Multilinguality learned by
Feeling...
Hearing...
Touching...
Seeing...
Experiencing love and hate and hurt.
You run with a smile, hit a thing invisible
Spin, fall, shake, clear the dizziness.
Get up and go again. Spin faster. Fall harder.
Scrapes deeper, gashing knees and palms, bleeding and crying.
Tears pour. They trickle. Drip. Dry.
You wrap your wounds and walk away and tell your tale.
Regret not because you've learned not to run when the floor is wet.
The scar remains, has changed your terrain. You will look and remember.
Embrace the memory. You have learned something new.
Reach out for more knowledge. Explore yourself. Kiss the girl.
Kiss the boy. Kiss the arm, pull it above the head. Enjoy.
Smiles infect and invade. Like sweet remnants of candy it lingers on your mouth.
You're beautiful that way.
I hope I did something to effect someone today. An unknown kindness noticed and cherished.
Connecting. Connecting.
To people, to my earth. Wrapping my soul around everything there is to know.
To know what hurt is. To know what love is.
To know what everything-in-between is.
To spread out and feel from your core, electrifying, travelling and reaching out the ends
Of your
Fingertips

Missing ________

Content.
Schedules full. Every hour precise.
Skipped lunch again.
She said I looked thinner.
Thank you so much.
I want that. To be thinner.
I'm brainwashed to believe it will make me better.
Or, at least equal.
Desirable.
Perfect sparkling skin. Tanned... smooth.
Heart shaped lips. Curves... everywhere.
Big beautiful eyes.
Eyes that see.
X-rays for a soul.
Your soul.
I know what you did.
I see what you're doing.
Stop. Please STOP.
Before it's too late. Before we lose you to them.
Be the person I first met.
Stop indulging in their attention.
They only use you. Emotionally abuse you.
Hypocrite. I tell you not to do exactly what I'm doing.
I don't know.
All I really know is that I want you to be yourself.
I don't want you to change like you are.
I don't want you to forget what's important.
Stop wearing your heart on your sleeve.
I'm trying my best to lock mine back in my chest.
But yours still dangles off your wrist.
Like bait for ravenous feelings of lonliness.
You'll know what to do if you look.
If you accept.
Be my friend, or don't. Choose.
Stop making me doubt you.
I can see who you can be.
YOU ARE DIFFERENT.
Love it.
For your own sake.